Not doing so hot
Lets just say that I have a feeling that this is going to be a very negative and down blog post, so readers be warned. My main problem is with this same girl that I have been stuck on for quite a while. This is really just going to be me ranting and whining so you are once again warned.
It obviously doesnt work as us being just friends, She still likes me and I still like her we have given in to hand holding a few times and well that is big for me. It seemed to be a big step for her too. But after this she rejected me, then we did that again and she rejected me again, we took some time off and tried to be friends. We actually repeated this again where we took like a month off not talking to each other and tried to be friends again and guess what we are collapsing again. But I guess she would rather not be friends at all than even give something more a try. Its not like im trying to convince her to marry me. I will never be convinced until we give it a try. We tried her idea and guess what it didnt work either time. I guess I just want closure like many people wold but she just wont even consider it. This is really just starting to get to me. I guess I just dont get it. I dont get how someone can go through all of this and when the plan fails not be willing to try something else. I will be very sad when she decides we cant be friends but I wont have a choice to do anyhting else. I live in a world driven by logic and the illogical nature of this just bothers me. I really think that she is more afriad that she would be happy than she is that it wouldnt work. I guess someone being happy would be a terrible thing. I realize that I am probalby coming across as being lonely, but I have really worked to try to find someone else so that i could at least move on and in comparison no one else even comes close. I have more fun doing nothing with her than I have doing anyhting with anyone else. There is an inexplicable connection that we have both professed to feeling. In my mind at least it is more than just a crush. I have had crushes and they dont last like this. I guess i just dont know what to do. Anyone with any advice please let me know. I am willing to listen to any ideas.
Take it easy
It obviously doesnt work as us being just friends, She still likes me and I still like her we have given in to hand holding a few times and well that is big for me. It seemed to be a big step for her too. But after this she rejected me, then we did that again and she rejected me again, we took some time off and tried to be friends. We actually repeated this again where we took like a month off not talking to each other and tried to be friends again and guess what we are collapsing again. But I guess she would rather not be friends at all than even give something more a try. Its not like im trying to convince her to marry me. I will never be convinced until we give it a try. We tried her idea and guess what it didnt work either time. I guess I just want closure like many people wold but she just wont even consider it. This is really just starting to get to me. I guess I just dont get it. I dont get how someone can go through all of this and when the plan fails not be willing to try something else. I will be very sad when she decides we cant be friends but I wont have a choice to do anyhting else. I live in a world driven by logic and the illogical nature of this just bothers me. I really think that she is more afriad that she would be happy than she is that it wouldnt work. I guess someone being happy would be a terrible thing. I realize that I am probalby coming across as being lonely, but I have really worked to try to find someone else so that i could at least move on and in comparison no one else even comes close. I have more fun doing nothing with her than I have doing anyhting with anyone else. There is an inexplicable connection that we have both professed to feeling. In my mind at least it is more than just a crush. I have had crushes and they dont last like this. I guess i just dont know what to do. Anyone with any advice please let me know. I am willing to listen to any ideas.
Take it easy
posted by weckpd | 8:29 PM
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