New Blog

Here is the web address of the new blog that I have. It will be replacing this one. I am not deleting this, but won't be posting on here anymore.

http://weckpd.blogspot.com/

Can't Sleep, Clowns Will Eat Me

Well the first part of the title is true. I really just can't sleep tonight. I want my brain to shut off, but tonight that just isn't happening. Maybe its because I stayed up until 2 last night for the first time in over a week. I don't know. Lots of different things have been going through my mind. I might just need to reflect some on the page.

I have been thinking about this last girl that I dated, even though I have not seen her in probably two months. I would like to talk to her, but my problem is that I revert back to how I felt before. I still just want to know what happened. I know part of the reason that she freaked at first was that I was too open with things. I was not really raised in an emotionally open environment, I had to make myself into someone like that. I really like being open about my emotions, and she said she wanted to be completely about that too, but I guess I was just too open about everything.

I really should probably just steer clear of dating until I get myself figure out. The saddest thing is that I still miss just talking to her. I know she definitely does not feel the same way so I need to find a way to get over it.

I guess my uncle is at least aware that I have a blog, he referenced it in a conversation we had during christmas with my dad. At least I think that was what he was referencing. I will just have to give Uncle Eric a shoutout!

Did I just write shoutout for the first time? In my 101st blog post. Weird huh?

He actually had suggested that I write about one movie a week, which is not a bad idea. I might work into that some time. I would like to blog more often, but really only do it as needed. I have a few other things I want to write about I just need to make myself sit down and do it.

I was at home sick for a lot of this past week with a pretty nasty cold, and possibly also some allergies. It helped me recharge my batteries some. I needed some mental health time, but when do I not need some of that?

I still really don't know what my dream job is, and it is starting to bug me. I like my job at the SBDC helping people with their businesses. My boss at that job was encouraging me to take the GRE and start grad school, but I don't even know if I would want to go for an MBA or a degree in something completely different. I might be looking for a better second job as well. Looking for a job as a bank teller or something. Kinda tired of the grocery store right now, but I have said that before. The flexibility with scheduling is what makes it so easy to work there though.

I need to find a way to get out there and make some new friends. The fact that I have severe social anxiety never really helped me make friends. I have some good friends who I talk to regularly, but most of them don't live in the area anymore. I really don't have anyone to even go to the movies with around here. I think my taste in movies is hard to find in a friend, or at least someone who would tolerate the movies I would like to see and then openly discuss them afterward. I guess I have not tried lately, so I only have myself to blame. I need to deal with my anxiety, maybe through self help. Some things are just so hard for me to do, I can't even explain it.

Weirdly enough that was yet another thing that I liked about the last girl I dated. She was very social, and I really thought she would more or less make me get over it, and at least be someone who would be there with me, but then again that was me looking way to far into the future of a relationship that barely even happened. Back on that topic, she said that we moved too fast, but I think we moved to fast for her, not for me. We didn't do all that much physically, I thought we really connected emotionally and intellectually though. I think that connection might have scared her off too. Maybe another problem I have is that I just get too connected to girls. But this one was talking as if she was on the same level, then just bailed, then bailed, then we got back together, but she didnt feel the same any more.

I guess I just needed to vent some stuff out on here huh? I probably won't even post this on facebook and twitter until Monday. I just wanted to write this stuff out to get my brain to relax, as I have been known to do.

I really want to be over this girl, but another part of me just wants to have another shot with her, but I don't see that happening any time soon. I guess I was too aggressive in trying to find out what went wrong, or just getting a straight answer on something. Aggressive was her word. I guess the tone of my text message or chatting was mean, I don't know. I am sure it is for the best that we are not together, but I just want to know why. I could try ust talking to her but I know I would revert back to my having feelings and she will stay at her not having any for me. I just don't understand why. I feel like I have made no progress at all in 2 months and that seems sad to me, but I guess not uncommon for me. I just think I did not develop emotionally like others. I feel like I am emotionally retarded.

My first real date was when I was 19, and that has led to a long line of rejection for the most part.

Well That was my venting for tonight. I will have some more interesting things in the future.

Please comment, or tweet me.

Peter
@weckpd on Twitter

My favorite movies of 2010

I just thought I would write this. I meant to write something like this last year, but never got myself around to it. I hope you enjoy, and let me know if you agree, disagree, or any comments you have. Either leave comments on here, talk to me one facebook, or on Twitter (@weckpd). I want it to be known that I am not a critic, just a regular guy who has an affinity for movies.

Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World: In my opinion this was a movie that was perfect for a person like me. It was funny; had action, while still being funny; did a great job of making it really feel like the movie came from a graphic novel; had great 8-bit graphics and sound in certain scenes. I don't think nearly enough people saw this movie. I could not have been more excited for this movie to come out, and it still exceeded my expectations. I have been preaching the gospel of Scott Pilgrim since then, trying to get as many people to watch it as I could. I know it is not a movie for everyone, but I don't think enough people saw this movie. Edgar Wright did an amazing job with this movie. Some of the shots are just brilliant. Worth seeing in HD when possible.

I would actually give Scott Pilgrim 10 out of 10. I hardly ever give anything that rating to anything, but I have watched Scott Pilgrim 4 times on Blu-Ray and am looking forward to watching the different commentaries as well. I hate how some people make their opinion of a movie based upon how much money it made. Sure it was a big studio movie that didn't make that much at the box office. I would have paid 3 times the normal price to see this in theaters.


Kick Ass:


The Social Network: I really loved the dialog in the movie. I think Aaron Sorkin is to credit for that, he always seems to create such great back and forth between characters. I think Jesse Eisenberg should at least be nominated for Best Actor for this. He is great at being the snarky Mark Zuckerberg. I am looking forward to watching it again. I will most likely buy it on DVD. The Social Network is very entertaining, especially when you consider the fact that for the most part the movie is people sitting at tables talking. My favorite Drama of the year. Although it is not the easiest thing to classify movies into a specific genre in my opinion.


Harry Potter 7.1: I will just start off by saying that this was my favorite of all of the Harry Potter movies that have been released this far. I think the main trio definitely stepped up their performances. I think some of the shots were awesome, showing some great landscapes and countrysides. I am able to separate my opinion of Harry Potter movies from the books. I know some people judge them based on how close they are to the book. I just like to look at the movie as a movie and not make a comparison. I don't remember every detail from the books anyway. Odds are, if you didn't want to see it you won't go out and see it based upon my recommendation.


Toy Story 3: I absolutely loved Toy Story 3. I actually cried at the very end. The tears caught me off guard, I guess I am too much of a robot to cry at movies, or I am just really good at separating myself from the movie itself. Something in the final scene of Toy Story 3 really struck a chord with me and I just felt myself tearing up. I would really like to see it again. I liked the addition of random new voice actors for example Kristen Schaal. I think this movie was a great end to the Toy Story Trilogy. It was nice to see Pixar go back to the franchise that helped it get its start.

Honorable Mention:

Hot Tub Time Machine: I enjoyed it, but you have to come in with the correct expectations. It was funny. You can't go in expecting some elaborate plot. I pretty much love all things Clark Duke. I think some people were expecting a genuinely good movie which I was not expecting.

Red: I thought it was entertaining and funny. a solid 2.5 out of 4 maybe 2.75 out of 4. Predictable story, but it had action to keep the attention with explosions and a really good cast of characters. Don't go in expecting too much. It was very violent, but because there was no blood it was still a PG-13 movie.

Didn't See, but Want to:

Inception: I just never got around to seeing it, I am sure I will see it sooner or later.

Shutter Island: Scorsese movie, 'nuff said.

The Town: Heard pretty good things, Jon Hamm is a pretty man.

How To Train Your Dragon: I have a soft spot for Jay Baruchel. I am just sad I won't be able to see it in 3D in the theaters any longer. 5th highest rated movie of 2010 on rottentomatoes.com

Tangled: Heard great things about this movie as well. I am just worried about going to see a Matinée of this movie all alone. Will probably wait to watch it at home.

Easy A: Emma Stone is awesome in just about any movie, and Ebert gave it 2 thumbs up.

Cyrus: Had some great buzz back when it was released, but never really got past a small release. Supposed to be funny.

Catfish: Heard this movie has a weird twist to it. Also was told not to watch the trailer before seeing it.

Tiny Furniture: Lena Dunham wrote, directed, and starred in this movie. Supposed to be a movie that could potentially launch a career. She already is working on her next movie being produced by Judd Apatow.

Despicable Me: Yet another animated movie that I would like to see.

Monsters:I think this movie has like 2 characters in it and a long journey involving aliens.

Looking Forward to:

Green Hornet: Seth Rogen and Michel Gondry sounds like an interesting combination to me.

Paul: Simon Pegg and Nick Frost together again, this time directed by Greg Mottola, I will take that combo any day of the week.

The Fighter: Heard lots of good buzz about this. I will see it sooner or later.

Harry Potter 7.2: I loved 7.1 so I have to look forward to 7.2

True Grit: Jeff Bridges looks awesome in this.

Cowboys and Aliens: Silly name with an awesome cast/director combo.

Sucker Punch: I saw a teaser for this and it seemed like another cool movie from Zack Snyder.

Alright, as usual I am always open for new suggestions. Let me know if there is something you think I should see and I will add it to my very lengthy list of movies to see. I am also always up for discussion if anyone would like to discuss movies.

Thanks for reading.

Follow-up to my last post.

Well that last post I wrote about a girl and this is just a follow up to what has happened since.

I probably only have myself to blame for all of this. I probably guilted her into reconsidering her decision. We got back together after but it was not the same. She never really opened up to me. I was never someone she talked to about her feelings, it was always after the fact when she would tell me she was nervous about something the next day, or just not in a good mood. Never told me the day of, just acted distant again.

Knowing me I have idealized every part of her, but she literally met everything that I said I was looking for in someone else. We had very compatible senses of humor. Had similar interests in tv and movies. We were able to have open discussions about such things and debate them without getting mad at one another.

I read too much into her flirting. Its actually funny, one of her friends liked the idea of me dating her much more than she ever did. The first week was amazing but once she started to question it, it was just never the same. I guess it is time for me to really let go since we are not going to be dating. Its always nice to have someone to compare compatibility of everyone in the future to. And its funny, I was not the one who was thinking of this as dating to begin with.

I have never been so messed with in the head before. Throughout the whole thing I don't think she communicated very well at all. I was always in the dark with how she was feeling even when I was being honest and up front about it. She said she valued honesty and openness, but I think her friend knew much more about how she felt than I ever did. I really wish we could just start over from scratch. I would probably still be hesitant at first.

Its funny how I went into this thinking of it as someone just to hang out and do things with from time to time, but on that first visit she had other ideas. Then I was convinced to go for that, but then she changed her mind. God I love getting fucked with. I think the problem was that she started thinking about the relationship as a relationship and the put a damper on it. When she was just as happy an excited as I was it was amazing. Then suddenly the actual realization that she was in a relationship and it was over. I just don't understand it, maybe that is just my problem. I am wired differently than everyone else. I lead myself on too much. I know we have chemistry and then I assumed that actually meant something to someone other than myself.

The weird thing is that I now know its over. I am at least at peace with that. I am used to being a bit down and alone. I just get too excited by the idea of being with someone. I think either way I would have felt ok. I must be the only person who gets lonely. She sure doesn't seem to want that kind of companionship. Maybe i want it too much. I really want to rewire my brain and how it works. I am just tired of this. I don't want to be wanting this all the time. I want to be able to just shrug it off and not care. I envy her for being able to do that.

I really want to not be messed up like this anymore. This could just be that I am not healthy enough to be in a relationship.

I still think part of the problem is that she is afraid to be in a relationship where everything is on the table. She definitely held back a lot in the relationship when she started thinking about this. I just don't think you can go through a relationship and hide things that bother you. I might just expect people to be too open and honest about stuff.

I need to take some time to reflect upon this and to continue working on myself.I know I need to work on myself a lot both physically and psychologically. I need to take some time away from girls, not that I actually have to try to do that. I am glad I at least had a chance to talk to this girl and get some answers. I need to figure out what it is I want in the future. This time around I was really just looking for someone to do things with and then if that developed into something that would be ok. If not, oh well.

For those who will be asking from this, yes I am ok. I am not really depressed from this, maybe it has not set in yet, or maybe I have learned to work with it.

And that's the end of that chapter!

So here we are again. I am writing once again after another relationship. This one definitely breaks my mold from the past, but is quite confusing from my perspective. I am sure that I have idealized some things about its. Its not like the relationship lasted a long time, exactly 14 days.

It started on a dating website, as most of my relationships do. I am not ashamed of it really. I think they offer communication in a nonthreatening and in this case free forum. I saw her profile, thought she seemed really cool. We had a lot of things in common, specifically tastes in movies and tv shows. I don't find people with very similar tastes in movies and tv shows often, especially when it comes to girls.

I had gone into this looking for just a friend or someone to talk to. I really had no romantic expectations not that I was closed off to them, it was definitely contrary to how I normally do things. We exchanged some messages on the site for a while, and found out that we really had a lot in common. We had many of the same opinions about things, another thing that does not happen that often. I still was not expecting anything to happen.

We chatted a few times on the website. One day we were both craving some chinese food and decided to meet for some. I was not thinking of it as a date at the time, but it definitely developed into one as we went on. Chinese was great we warmed up to each other after a little bit of talking. She didn't live right in Eau Claire, so I didn't feel right just parting ways after she had driven to Eau Claire to have dinner with me. Lets just say the date went really well. Nothing dirty. Just had great conversation, I got to show her a movie she had never seen and enjoyed. I always enjoy doing that. I was definitely more convinced after this date of the romantic relationship that was to follow.

I wont go through all of the details of the whole 2 weeks, but I thought things were going well. She was heading to a conference out of the area but happened to stop by my apartment and left a love note on my door, not something I am accustomed to getting. It was very sweet and it definitely made me smile really big. I can't bring myself to discard it yet. I wouldn't get to see her until 5 days later. We talked a few of the nights she was gone, but not the other ones. It really was not a big deal. The next time I saw her was this past saturday and it was not much of a date. Just a stop by to break up with me.

She had a point that she does not know where she was going with her life, but neither do I. I am not too worried at this point where my life is going. I understand that she can go in many different directions, and does not want anything to skew her decisions. I would never want to hold her back from doing what she wants to do. She says she is also not ready for a serious relationship right now. I was not looking for a relationship when we met and she convinced me otherwise, then tells me that she is not ready for it. I am so confused by this. I just wanted someone to hang out with, go to movies with. Nothing romantic. Then I get all switched up with this stuff. I just don't understand all of this and would like some outside input. I know that it is over, but I just can't accept it right now. Its really lame, but I just don't like throwing something that I was enjoying away. I would much rather see where everything goes.

I guess she didn't want to have any commitments around here. It wasn't perfect relationship of course. I was a little needy for attention, but I really just went by how she acted in the beginning and did the same. I guess she slowed down the communication after the very beginning and I stayed at the same pace. I was not as overbearing as I have been in the past. She seems to think that I want to get married soon, which is not really true. I would not at all mind a long term committed relationship but to me that is much different than marriage. Honestly I would rather had had someone to see movies with than a relationship, but of course it didn't happen that way. Now I have no one other than my roommate and her boyfriend to go see the next Harry Potter with. I don't really like being the third wheel all that much.

Well that is all I have about the past few weeks. I really have no hard feelings, mostly because I still really like her. I will have to get over that some time. The rest of this will be some wonderful self analysis.

I am so needy. I don't know why, but I have definitely spent lots of time thinking about it. I really like attention, and I think part of it is because I am the middle child. I never got enough of it as a kid and I somehow use relationships as a way to get attention, which is definitely very messed up.

Another reason I like to get attention in relationships is because I waited so long for my first one. I have had very little success in relationship only having a handful of months in relationships altogether. I didn't have my first relationship or kiss until I was 23 years old. I went on a few dates before then, I had enjoyed some of the dates, but that was about it. I guess having waited so long to even have someone willing to kiss me, or even willing to get that close to me that did a little bit of damage psychologically.

I think growing up and not having many good female friends, I never really got adjusted to dealing with girls. I am still awkward at times and nervous. I am 24 years old and I am still nervous when it comes to meeting girls. Its just something that I never learned.

I also never really learned to be an openly emotional person. I am way too logical and nowhere near enough emotion. I think part of the reason I run more on my brain than on my heart is because of the depression I had to deal with. It was not easy, and my best weapon against it was also the thing I had to fight, my mind. It enables me to do this type of self analysis. Its not that I am not caring, I know that I show how caring I am to people.


So going back to this past relationship, she asked me how I saw a relationship. I said that I saw it as a yin yang. The two people need to be complementary to each other. IN this case she was more of a talker and I was more of a listener. She was more emotional, and I was definitely more logical. I know it does not really count, because that relationship is over but the more that I thought about it the better the relationship seemed. This theory of mine is kinda a spin off of the olive theory from How I Met Your Mother.

Well that is all I needed to spill today. I actually feel much better for having written it down.

Peter

Sport Report

I meant to write my reflections on the world cup and the first half of the baseball season earlier but I guess there is no better time than now.

World Cup

The World Cup was great to watch and provided me with countless hours of entertainment, even while I was working. I was able to listen to some games while working delivery shifts at Mega on saturdays as well as watching and listening to others while working at the SBDC.

Before the tournament began I had selected The Netherlands to win the tournament, so I was close to getting that right. Germany was one of the bigger surprises of the tournament and a very pleasant one from my perspective, they are the team that my family and I always cheer for apart from the US.

Honestly the US did the bare minimum they needed to do to qualify for the elimination round. I was underwhelmed. They consistently played themselves into situations where they were trailing. The team has trouble not having significant defensive breakdowns. Then coming up with some clutch late goals to equalize or even take the lead. Getting into the first elimination round is not all that impressive to me, others may have been happy with that result, but no one it our group really played all that well and we were just better than all of those weak teams.

Coming in to the World Cup I was not expecting much from Germany, I didnt think Klose would be up to form, I didnt think that the team would be that organized without Michael Ballack, but honestly I think Ballack being hurt was the best thing that could have happened for the team. All of the young players on the offensive end of the ball really meshed well together. Mueller was of course a breakout star, players like Oezil and Schweinsteiger played wonderfully. Schweinsteiger had been a bit wild in his play previously but he had been playing as an outside mid instead of a defensive mid. He was responsible for a lot of their counter attack goals. I am really looking forward to seeing this team play in Euro 2012.

Uruguay was another team that was a big surprise. I had not really known all that much about them coming into the tournament, but they were definitely my favorite team from South America. Forlan was the best shooter from distance in the whole tournament.

The biggest disappointment of the tournament has got to be Brazil, they did just fine in their group and also in their first elimination game, but then they imploded in their game against the Netherlands, more specifically Felipe Melo imploded in that game. That game was filled with diving which was extremely annoying, but the Dutch players were able to score the goals they needed to.

I was very disappointed in Portugal. It was rough that they had to play Spain in the first elimination round, but I still thought they could pull it out. There really is not all that much that I want to discuss about them, I really did think they would be able to make the final though.

I was not disappointed with Argentina, I did not think they would go all that far and they lived up to my expectations. Their win over Mexico was impressive, but Mexico never really got them on their heels. Against Germany they had no answers for the counter attack whatsoever. Every time they would over commit and then they would be caught off guard, this happened for all 4 goals I believe. Of course the German outlet passes were brilliant and very fun to watch.

Neither the Netherlands of Spain was that much fun to watch in the tournament. Spain controls the ball a lot, but kills a lot of time without doing all that much. The Netherlands really did not have all that many spectacular plays, but they got the job done, as did Spain. Spain's defense was ridiculously good.

All in all it was a good tournament.


MLB first half

They Twins have definitely been in a major rut as of late. They have not been getting many quality starts from anyone other than Carl(os) Pavano. I call him Carlos and that mustache definitely makes him look more like a Carlos, as racist as that may sound. The offense has also been very hit or miss lately. Delmon Young has definitely been the most consistent, and it is good to see him doing well.

The Twins missed out on Cliff Lee, but the price for him was very high. We might go out and get some lesser pitcher, but I think that Slowey will come around, we might need to put Duensing in the rotation and Blackburn in the bullpen, but only time will tell on that topic. I am starting to lose confidence in Jon Rauch as the closer, but it does not help that he was brought in with a bigger than 3 run lead. I truly believe that in an era where closers are only put into games in save situations, its sometimes hard for them to get the same adrenaline rush going. I have observed it through fantasy baseball, they just tend to give up runs in that situation. On the plus side though I have a lot more confidence in Jesse Crain. He has been throwing the hell out of the ball.

The Twins need consistency for the rest of the season, and possibly a Right handed bat off the bench. The team really seems to struggle against lefties, partially because we are so lefty heavy. Finding a cheap Righty bat should not be too costly, especially if it is a rent-a-player type of deal. In a fantasy world the Twins would trade for Roy Oswalt, who has been great this season, but has received very little run support. He would not only be here this year, but next year and has an option for 2012. But I have no expectations of this actually happening.

Some Impressive things that have happened in the first half on the baseball season:
Texas with a solid lead in their division, and they just picked up Cliff Lee.
Atlanta is leading the NL East by 5 games now while Jason Heyward is on the DL.
The Padres are leading the NL West.
The Reds are leading the NL Central, but that is only by half a game right now.
Vladimir Guerrero is killing the ball for the Rangers.
Corey Hart is having a resurgent year while hearing his name in trade talks.
Ubaldo Jiminez is 15-1 which is just insane.
Josh Johnson is 9-3 with a better ERA and WHIP than Ubaldo Jiminez.
Robinson Cano had an amazing first half, and has better number for the second half so far in his career.

The all-star game is one of my favorite events to watch. I don't like the need to get every player into the game that the managers seem to have. It hurt the AL this year, not that I can come to the conclusion that it lost them the game, but it hurt them not having anyone who could run for David Ortiz. He was forced out at second on a bloop single. This is something that happened with too many players already on the rosters!

The game was mostly a pitchers duel. It was cool to see Ubaldo Jiminez and Josh Johnson each pitch two solid innings for the NL. The AL just could not get a hit when it needed one.

That all for tonight, I will probably write a personal entry tomorrow.

Update on my life

When I was on vacation in Alaska, I wrote a journal entry about how I really don't care if I were to go my whole life without having sex. This of course means for everyone who doesn't know, I am a virgin. I am very much ok with that. I have had chances to have sex, but actually chose to resist because I didn't feel right about it for one reason or another. I am not looking for sex in a relationship, not that I am opposed to it. I truly feel that a method along the lines of The 40 Year Old Virgin would in fact be a good thing to starting a relationship. For those who are not familiar with that movie, it involves on going on a lot of dates without engaging in sex, I believe the number was 20, but I could be wrong.

I think that sex can complicate feeling in a relationship and actually hide your true feelings, of course this is just my observation from other people not from my own experience. I already have trouble with my emotions and feelings without sex even being involved, so I can only imagine how horrible it would be with sex involved.

I have a friend who has a friend with benefits and was telling me how great it was, but I could just never do that. I wouldn't want to have sex with someone that I didn't like, and I also wouldn't be able to separate my feelings for someone that I did like just to have meaningless sex with them.

In the past I have talked about how I really wasn't going to look for someone, but my mind and I guess also heart just have to find someone to have a crush on. I don't know why I feel the need to always at least have a small crush on someone, but it really can get annoying when your mind just latches on to someone who is clearly not who you are looking for just so you have someone to think about. It is not like I develop real big crushes on the girls, but it is more of a placeholder crush until the next person comes along.

I definitely have a way of convincing myself that someone is a good fit for me even if I know they are not at all. I don't really know why I am so needy to have a crush on someone.

As it stands I do have a crush on someone, but it really has come about in a very weird way. It is someone that I started following(could twitter have come up with a creepier term?) on twitter a few weeks ago. I followed her after something she had written was retweeted by the Minnesota Twins Twitter page, just for fun. I have noticed that she is hilarious, as well as a huge Twins fan. A girl who can combine those two things actually exists? I was as mystified as you are. She also makes lots of hilarious references to tv and movies, something I also really enjoy. Now the question is, do I actually have a crush on her? I think I actually do. The more I have found out about her, the more I have liked. She also does not drink, which is rare to find in a 24 year old girl. She is also very cute, while not a priority, never hurts. I am sure that m min is assisting with the development of a crush on someone who hardly even knows that I exist. I have tweeted to her a bunch of times and sometimes she tweets back, but I am sure she gets a tons of tweets and does not have the time to respond to all of them.

My current goal is to find a way to get her to follow me, that will be step 1. Step two will then be to possible find a way to see if she would go out with me in some capacity. I realize that this is a hard goal, but also it is just weird for me to think about. I don't know exactly how I would go about doing this, or even exactly where in Minnesota she lives. I just really think that from what i know of her that we would honestly have a fun time discussing anything and everything, from the serious to the comedic. She also pays attention to the comedy world, which I have been getting more and more into, thanks to twitter and podcasts.

As always posts like this are usually to help me clear my head and kind of act as therapy for me. I would love to hear any advice that anyone has for me, or any amusing related stories that people might have about similar things.

Thanks for reading.
Peter