All work and no play makes Peter a dull boy.

If I am blogging it has got to be something about girls right? I have down time at work right now, my boss is on a conference call and I will probably be leaving early today. I really have nothing to work on right now. I need him to review something before I can proceed with it. So I am using my time to do something semi-productive, pour my thoughts onto a page. Before I get down to business I want to say that I was disappointed in the Grammy’s this year. The one category I actually cared about went to my second choice. I wish My Morning Jacket would have won for best alternative album, Radiohead ended up winning, which was not that bad, but this album of theirs was not one of my favorites of theirs.
Anyway that really isn’t that important, although the rest of this won’t be super important either. I really just need to clear my head and this after all is my main method of doing so. There is a girl who works at the bank that is inside of mega. She and I have flirted a lot over the past few months. That is what I tend to do not that it wasn’t specifically intended to be with her. I guess I am naturally flirty, but that’s beside the point. This past week I mentioned to a friend at work that I thought she was fun to talk to and cute on top of that. I had no real plans of pursuing anything immediately. He asked if it was ok if he asked his friend who works there to about her, I think he just wanted an excuse to talk to her, but of course I said yes, because, well how could that hurt anything? As it turns out she thinks I’m cute and apparently talks about me too, but she is currently in a relationship, but from what I have heard its not a good relationship.
The worst part is that she is embarrassed by all of this and has pretty much avoided me as much as she can. I just would like a chance to talk to her myself instead of through two other people which seems to be the only real method of communication right now. I would never ask someone to break up with her boyfriend. I just want to know why she is reacting like that. I didn’t think it was that big of a deal. I mean I am not sure which part she thinks of as a big deal too. I just want to hear from her what is wrong. This all goes back to my wish that people would just be more straightforward. Its not like im good at approaching people especially cute girls, but I would like a chance to talk to her and see what’s up. I guess I just need to be patient and see how things play out. Its not like I am going anywhere haha. I guess the real problem is that I can’t get out of my own head. I want to talk to her but that has become ever harder with her avoiding me. Its not like I know what to say or do. This is really the one situation where I don’t know what to say or do. I just want an opportunity to talk to her. Its not like this is how I wanted things to play out either, but well its nowhere near the end of the world.
That’s all for now.
Peter